Friday, March 23, 2012

Misconception Conception:

Well, It's been a year. One year of blood tests, and pregnancy tests, and ultra sounds, and HSG, and Clomid, and Metformin, no smoking, no drinking....And I have NOTHING to show for it.

Honestly, I'm getting to the point where I just want to quit. With every pregnancy announcement and birth announcement I'm finding it harder to hold on to what sanity I have left.

It brings me to tears every day to see other people with what I want so desperately for Dustin and myself.

I have to force myself to not ask women in the grocery store if I can buy their babies off of them.

So this is what I have to say. Dear Coach WHOEVER from 9th grade Sex education. You Sir...Are a liar! It is possible for you to get pregnant by having sex once, But you should also mention that when you WANT to get pregnant it's FUCKING IMPOSSIBLE! And Also, Marijuana is NOT a gateway drug. I smoked Pot for years and never did anything more than get high and eat little debbie brownies.

I have to get some sleep. This day just keeps getting worse.